As I reflected just last year (it feels like a very strange eternity ago), early January is my usual time to contemplate my year past in reading and to absorb and appreciate the musings of fellow readers as they share their own reflections. I’m doing that again, of course, but admittedly with more pondering (some of it bewildered), some trepidation and even some weariness, even as there is much to celebrate. This particular exercise of looking back is through a lens uniquely fogged and scratched and battered, about which enough has been said. This exercise also tussles with the conundrum of how reading can comfort, can distract, can bolster our spirits – but even that very practice was affected by the perils of this trying year.

As did so many events and gatherings this past year, the silent book club groups in which I take part all moved online during the first wave of pandemic closures and lockdowns. Again and still, the attendees of our silent book club gatherings collectively helped each other through struggles with our reading – intermittent concentration, flagging attention span, lessened energy, emotions triggered and so on – and I chronicled some of that in our reports, which I was determined to keep up throughout.

(Glenn Sumi of Now Magazine also offered excellent insights into the science behind why it’s been so hard to read a book during this rollercoaster ride of a year. I was happy to commiserate with Glenn about this reading affliction as he was researching the article.)

Respecting local guidelines and restrictions, our silent book club still managed to meet for brief, physically distanced, but still heart lifting gatherings in the park … even as the weather grew colder again.

This year, I decided to take up the daunting but wonderful Sealey Challenge for reading yet more poetry. Started in 2017 by American poet and educator Nicole Sealey, and steered through social media with the hashtag #thesealeychallenge, the idea is to commit and do your best to read 31 works of poetry over the course of 31 days in August. Before this challenge, I always have had a poetry collection on the go, but reading at this pace turned it into a whole new, mind-expanding experience – at times overwhelming but always exhilarating. What a boost, in many, many ways … ironically, I can’t seem to express my gratitude very poetically.

I continued my commitment in 2020 to a daily devotion to at least one poem … and usually more, as friends on Twitter continued to generously share their poem choices and reflections via the #todayspoem hashtag. I’m now heading into my 10th uninterrupted year of poetry tweets.

Another practice that continues to heighten my weekly reading joy as I navigate through books is that of #sundaysentence, championed and curated by author David Abrams. As I’ve observed before, seeking a beautifully or uniqued crafted sentence each week sharpens my attention when I’m reading, and I love discovering new works through the #sundaysentence choices of other readers.

In years past when I’ve looked back on my reading, I’ve reminisced about where I was when I was reading this or that, or I’ve linked to longer notes and reviews here on this blog, on Goodreads, etc. I’m not going to do that this year. In all honesty, I wandered around online a lot this year, trying to keep or regain my readerly grounding. That might sound counter-intuitive, since where but online were we being significantly enraged, upset and distracted? But in fact, I found lots of conversations on Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, as well as vital zoom gatherings and events (many authors and literary festivals did an inspiring and commendable job of moving readings online, for example) that kept me going as a reader.

Here are the books I read, reread and read aloud in 2020.

January, 2020

1. Grand Union by Zadie Smith
2. I’ll Take You There – Mavis Staples, the Staple Singers and the March Up Freedom’s Highway by Greg Kot (read aloud)
3. Eleanor Oliphant is completely fine by Gail Honeyman
4. The Topeka School by Ben Lerner
5. The Silent Patient by Alex Michaelides
6. Field Notes for the Self by Randy Lundy

February, 2020

7. behind the scenes at the museum by Kate Atkinson
8. Dominoes at the Crossroads by Kaie Kellough
9. Our Dogs, Ourselves by Alexandra Horowitz (read aloud)

March, 2020

10. Flights by Olga Tokarczuk, translated by Jennifer Croft
11. Arias by Sharon Olds
12. Music For Tigers by Michelle Kadarusman
13. Actress by Anne Enright
14. The Only Story by Julian Barnes

April, 2020

15. My Antonia by Willa Cather (reread)
16. Unlock by Bei Dao, translated by Eliot Weinberger and Iona Man-Cheong
17. For It Is a Pleasure and a Surprise to Breathe: new and selected poems by Gary Barwin, edited by Alessandro Porco
18. Swamp Angel by Ethel Wilson (reread)
19. The Beginning of Spring by Penelope Fitzgerald (reread)

May, 2020

20. The Progress of Love by Alice Munro (reread)
21. The Baudelaire Fractal by Lisa Robertson

June, 2020

22. A Gentleman in Moscow by Amor Towles
23. The Swan Suit by Katherine Fawcett
24. Purple Hibiscus by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
25. Early Stages by John Gielgud (read aloud)
26. In Another Place, Not Here by Dionne Brand

July, 2020

27. Good Citizens Need Not Fear by Maria Reva
28. Motherhood by Sheila Heti
29. Circe by Madeline Miller
30. Nanaimo Girl by Prudence Emery
31. Mr Salary by Sally Rooney

August, 2020

start of #thesealeychallenge (reading 31 works of poetry in 31 days)

32. The Outer Wards by Sadiqa de Meijer
33. Quantum Typography by Gary Barwin (reread)
34. Time by Etel Adnan, translated by Sarah Riggs
35. Rat Jelly by Michael Ondaatje
36. Evidence by Andrea Thompson, illustrations by Catherine Tammaro
37. The Witch of the Inner Wood by M. Travis Lane, edited by Shane Neilson
38. How She Read by Chantal Gibson
39. Silverchest by Carl Phillips
40. Vice Versa by Elyse Friedman, illustrated by Shannon Moynagh

41. Dart by Alice Oswald
42. Murmurations by Annick MacAskill
43. England by Nia Davies (reread)
44. Grain by John Glenday (reread)
45. Forge by Jan Zwicky
46. On the Menu by Jacqueline Valencia, illustrated by Jennifer Chin
47. The Mobius Strip Club of Grief by Bianca Stone (reread)
48. Crow by Amy Spurway
49. Cloud Physics by Karen Enns
50. Fields of Light and Stone by Angeline Schellenberg
51. Stranger by Nyla Matuk
52. Ornament by Anna Lena Phillips Bell

53. Everyone at This Party by Tanja Bartel
54. The Dzygraphxst by Canisia Lubrin
55. Juliet (I) by Sarah Certa
56. What We Carry by Susan Glickman
57. Belated Bris of the Brainsick by Lucas Crawford
58. behindlings by Nicola Barker
59. I Am on a River and Cannot Answer by Amy Miller
60. Riven by Catherine Owen
61. Magnetic Equator by Kaie Kellough
62. Short Talks by Anne Carson (reread)
63. Body Count by Kyla Jamieson
64. go-go dancing for Elvis by Leslie Greentree (reread)

end of #thesealeychallenge (reading 31 works of poetry in 31 days)

65. No Authority by Anne Enright

September, 2020

66. Plainsong by Kent Haruf
67. Antigonick (Sophokles) translated by Anne Carson, illustrated by Bianca Stone
68. Blaze Island by Catherine Bush
69. Modern Times by Cathy Sweeney

October, 2020

70. No Grave for This Place by Judy Quinn, translated by Donald Winkler
71. Dinosaurs on Other Planets by Danielle McLaughlin
72. Northern Light by Roy MacGregor (read aloud)
73. Started Early, Took My Dog by Kate Atkinson
74. Jack by Marilynne Robinson

November, 2020

75. Exciting Times by Naoise Dolan
76. the fool by Jessie Jones
77. Girl, Woman, Other by Bernardine Evaristo

December, 2020

78. Waiting for a Star to Fall by Kerry Clare
79. Intimations: Six Essays by Zadie Smith
80. The End of Me by John Gould
81. Sister Language by Christina Baillie and Martha Baillie
82. Lost Family – A Memoir by John Barton
83. Up Jumped the Devil – The Real Life of Robert Johnson by Bruce Conforth and Gayle Dean Wardlow (read aloud)
84. The Night Piece by Andre Alexis
85. How to Pronounce Knife by Souvankham Thammavongsa

86. The Gifts of Reading by Robert MacFarlane

In 2020, I read a total of 86 works, not only a giant leap from previous years and a new personal record … but rather astonishing, in light of, well, everything. That broke out as:

• 37 works of fiction (novels and short story collections) – the exact same as my 2018 total
• 39 poetry collections and
• 10 works of non-fiction.

I reread 10 books, more than usual and another way that I got through some stretches where my reading mojo was decidedly fading. I read 5 works in translation, read one graphic work and read 46 works by Canadian authors. My husband and I read 5 books aloud to each other this year and have another one in progress as we greet the new year.

I also kept track again this year of the publication dates of the books I read. In 2020, the oldest book I read was published in 1918 (My Antonia by Willa Cather, which was a vital and comforting reread), and I also read nine books published between 1954 through the 1990s, further fulfilling my now yearly intention to read or reread some more older books. More than half of the books I read this year were published in 2019 or 2020.

So far in 2021, I’ve read or have in progress:

• Rachel to the Rescue by Elinor Lipman
• One Year at Ellsmere by Faith Erin Hicks
• Dearly by Margaret Atwood
• Gentlemen Prefer Blondes by Anita Loos
• Shuggie Bain Douglas Stuart
• Swivelmount by Ken Babstock
• A Promised Land by Barack Obama (read aloud)

For yet another year, I’m looking back with quiet satisfaction (and with gratitude to the practices and people who helped and inspired) on my reading during an extraordinarily difficult year, and looking forward with quiet optimism to where my reading this new year will take me. I’m grateful to the writers, publishers, reviewers and fellow readers who have spurred on and broadened my reading. I’m thankful as always for the bounty of beautiful words that came to me via so many conduits, evoking such an array of ideas, trains of thought, memories and associations, providing so much off the page, too.

I’ll simply conclude …

It’s not how many you read that counts. It’s that you read that counts – and it counts so very much.